Could this be it?

I saw my doctor today, and she said while I am not yet dilated, the baby's head has moved down into my pelvis and there was "blood in my urine" which is the indication of the "bloody show". She also said she would be very, very surprised if I lasted until January 1st. My SIL is convinced for some reason I am going to have this kid tommorrow, on her anniversary. I don't know about that though..............I haven't had any contractions (at least painful ones) at all and still am in the mindset that I am going to be preggers forever. If anything, at least the end is near........my parents are coming down to stay with us "till the end" next weekend so hopefully there will be some action at that point.............Something else I've noticed is both my pugs have been "super mushy" around me lately so maybe they do sense something that I don't..............

Feeling the financial crunch..........

Well, I am officially home now on maternity leave and we are already feeling the "financial crunch" of me giving up work for the next several months. Thankfully I still have a couple of regular paychecks and then all of my vacation time coming to me, before I have to file for disability. I find it really pathetic though that in NYS that I can only file for a max of like $170.00 a week for 6-8 weeks and that's it..........all other leave is unpaid. Oh, did I mention I also have to pay for most of my health insurance out of pocket during this time too?
My husband has a "friend" on the other hand who is basically a waste of space, who has been sitting around for months now, collecting unemployment, twice that amount, and he's not even bothering to look for a new job...............

We are lucky that we have a pretty good savings which we've added to in anticipation for this baby, but it's still stressful knowing we may need to live off some of that even for a couple of months.

We told our families as well we are not going all out this Christmas either.

We knew all of this ahead of time, and planned for it, but it's still a pretty sad reality that you feel like you are being "punished" in a sense for taking time off to spend with your new child........

I guess I will never be able to be a SAHM. At least not as long as we live here on costly Long Island.........I have asked for a change in roles at my job though when I return, which will allow me more flexibility to spend with my son, work from home more and just not have to deal with a lot of the corporate BS that I've been dealing with for the past year.........That's a major positive at least!